One bad chapter does not mean your story is over.

I don't expect an easy life, I want an exciting life with full of problems and, yet, valuable memories.

The only thing I can do with the past is to learn from it, no regret, no hard feeling

I'm not ready to lose you, dad

It's recently appear to me that my greatest fear is losing you, dad. Whether I was studying abroad, working far from home or being by your side; the fear haunted me terribly.
I fear that I have to face this world all alone. I fear that I will never be able to see you smile at me again. I fear that I will never have another chance to have a couple of beers with you again. I fear that you will never see your own son become truly successful.
I'm glad I have many chances to spend time with you, to share me idea about the world, about everything around us. I'm glad I have time for you to teach me more how to become a man with honor, with missions, with values.
I won't let you pass away seeing me as a failure. I will be strong, I will be the man I set to be, dad.

I don't want to be alone

Maze Puzzle

Back to the time there was no internet and games on computer are luxury experience, I was entertained by solving puzzle from my parent's newspapers and magazines. One of the easiest games I enjoyed was maze puzzle.
The thing was so simple for me that it took me less than half a minute to solve it. I just started the problem from the other end of the maze where there is only one obvious way to move. I was so proud of myself, I was so deluded and foolish. The puzzle created a perception in me that I was smart and brilliant. It made me choose intelligence over perseverance. That was the time I adopted the fixed-mindset.

Fortunately, I'm recognizing it now, that I need to play the game fair and square. That I need to start where everyone else start. Because you do not start at the end of the maze in life, you made your first move at the start of the maze and fight though the maze. You have to make trial and error in order to get progress to your goal which is the other end of the maze. It is when you need prior persistence and perseverance over intelligence, talent, and luck. It's time you have to adopt the growth mindset. Let's go our there and try things out, stop being afraid. Make mistake and learn, do things you love and grow. Be courageous, be strong.

I will

I will be there for you whenever you need me. I will be there when your family needs me. When you need someone who can share your joy and sadness, I’ll be there. When you need a shoulder to cry on, I’ll be there. When you need a hand to lift you from the day to day chaos and frustration, I’ll be there. When you’re in sickness, I’ll be there.

I will be there to celebrate our special dates. I will be there when our children are born. I will be there to decorate our home. I will be there to buy all the things we need to build our own family. I will be there to witness our children’s first word. I will be there to teach our kids how to drive a bike. I will be there to help our kids with their homework. I will be there for our kids’ graduation. I will be there for our family.

I will love you for who you are. I will not try to change you. I know it’s hard, it’s unrealistic, But I will love you unconditionally.

I will surprise you with roses, candles and my love. I will make breakfast in bed for you in the morning. I will cuddle you until all your worries are gone. I will remember our anniversary, our first official date, our first kiss date, our children’s birthdays and, of course, your birthday. I will travel with your from town to town, from city to city, from country to country. I will follow you where you go. I will hold your hands when I’m in my dead bed, look into your eyes and smile happily.